Frustration 1

Lately, I have been feeling a bit frustrated about the current situation I have. I have been working too long hours and giving myself a lot of pressure on work. That makes my health condition getting worse. My cold has never been healed and I always feel tired. Last week, I couldn't even speak a word. I really want a break sometimes.

Two weeks ago, I didn't go back to Taoyuan because I was too sick and tired. I called Allie, and told her that I was too ill and wanted a break. But afterward, I felt quilty about it. I spent whole day alone; I went to the beef noodles, bookstore, did the laundry and watched TV all day. I enjoyed the time I had but couldn't stop feeling quilty at the same time. I felt that I am not a good mother, I miss Allie everyday but I really need to have my own time once awhile. I start questioning myself if I made the right choice or not. I want to talk about this with Josh, but I am afraid that may give him more pressure.